How are you, iman?

Fuhh.. Assalamualaikum. Apa khabar iman anda sekalian? Hmm. Tepuk dada tanya iman. Susah nyer nak maintain iman ek, struggle kot. Dulu kat KMB boleh la, ada orang kasi semangat. Nak buat baik pon tak rasa janggal. Sekarang nak baca mathurat, baca sorang2. Takde orang nak ikut. Kalau ada tetamu (especially lelaki), sorang2 jer la akan pakai stokin. Nanti yang lain duk tanya, nape pakai stokin dalam rumah.Tapi biler pikir balik, kenapa la nak pikir sangat ape orang lain pikir? Fuhh, Hidup ni satu perjuangan, kena bermujahadah!! Kena stop buat benda2 lagha, at least limitkan.. Kalau nak berbual, kena berbual benda yang baik2. Kalau tak, baik diam jer. Takutnya rasa. Iman jatuh tahap aper. 

Di kesempatan ini, nak share jugak feeling bersyukur atas peristiwa yang berlaku akhir2 ni. Haritu saya ada tunjuk mathurat kat abang. Actually tunjuk sebab cover mathurat tu cantik (ni mathurat yang dapat time da batch punyer dinner). Then, die tanya, "ni apa?", saya pon menjawab, "mathurat, macam zikir2. Kitaorang selalu baca setiap pagi dan petang". Kemudian, dia teliti satu persatu. Dia tanya camne nak bace, die cakap macam banyak jer nak baca. Then, saya tunjuk. Dia kata dia nak photocopy, sebab nak amalkan jugak. Alhamdulillah, one down, 5 to go. Cheh. 

By the way, sekarang ni cam busy sangat. Kotak2 isi gula untuk along kahwin tu banyak sangat, ada seribu. Pastu ni nak buat video untuk birthday mak, harap sangat dapat buat sume ni penuh keikhlasan. Mintak2 urusan-urusan ini diberkati Allah. Amin.

Blaja dan terus blaja!

Assalamualaikum. Wee. First, Alhamdulilllah syukur saya panjatkan kepada Allah atas segala limpah kurnianya, sehinggakan saya masih mampu menggerakkan kedua belah tangan ini untuk menaip dan terus menaip di ruangan Coretan Kisah Hidupku. 

Hmm, IB dah abes (ceyh ni keluhan ke ape nih).. Bila pikir balik, macam rindu zaman dulu kat kmb. Subuh ada orang ronda kejut solat Subuh, ketuk pintu bilik sampai nak roboh. Lepas maghrib, ada orang akan jerit, jemput pegi kulsem kat surau blok. Petang2, iftar kelas. Petang ahad, usrah dgn Kak Baz. Wah, bunyik cam padat jer jadual, tapi Alhamdulillah survive jer IB. Sebenarnya, jadual padat IB ni membuatkan diri ini lebih pandai mengurus masa. Rasa-rasanya, kalau lah tak spend time pegi usrah sekali seminggu, lagi lah stress, hati akan jadi gelisah, macam rohani tak cukup makanan. Rasa cam bersyukur, sebab time kulsem, siriyes dapat kenal ramai kawan.  Jadi lebih rapat dengan kawan se-blok, walaupon bukan rakan sekelas. 

Biler pikir-pikir, ape ek yang saya belajar biler masuk KMB? Hmm.. banyak kot. Antaranya:

1) Blaja term2 yang tak pernah dikenali. 

Sebagai contoh, naqibah, naqib, mabit, jaulah, and the list goes on. Macam tak percaya kan? Haih, dulu jahil =.= , nak buat camne.

2) Belajar baca Mathurat

Mesti ada yang buat reaksi terkejut, cam O M Geee gituh. Tapi siriyes, memang tak pernah kenal pun Mathurat sebelum masuk kmb. Lagipun, tak pernah masuk skola berasrama penuh, tak pernah plak baca mathurat ramai2. So nak dijadikan crite, memang sangat malu time mula2 masuk kmb. Macam lost. Tak reti nak baca Mathurat, kan Mathurat ada sections dier, dulu cam main redah je sume. Pastu, orang lain sume duk baca lancar (masing2 kan dah hafal), aku tergagap2 sendiri. Sebab tu lah aku suka baca Mathurat kat bilik sorang2, supaya bole jer baca slow2. Tapi kan Alhamdulillah, jahil camne pon aku dulu, Allah tetap pilih aku untuk terima benda ni. Slow2 aku belajar, sekarang dah boleh amalkan :) (Nak menitis air mata bila kenangkan betapa jahilnya aku dulu)

3) Belajar peluk cium

Haha jangan salah sangka. Kat kmb, aku belajar untuk bermesra dengan kawan2 yang lain (perempuan je kayh =.=) . Aku bukanlah jenis yang mesra2 sangat, tapi kat kmb, peluk2 tu dah perkara biasa especially after usrah.  Mengeratkan silaturahim lah katakan :)

4) Belajar untuk bangun awal

Ceyh, rasanya kat mana2 pon boleh blaja untuk bangun awal. Tapi kan, kat Kmb macam lain sket. Walaupon penat dengan assignments, selalu jer terbangun dengan sendirinya pukul 4 pagi camtu (tapi pastu tido balik =.=). Melainkan tak tido langsung, atau tido lewat giler (contohnye malam math port folio, sume macam zombie kampung pisang). Harap2 boleh maintain kat rumah bangun awal. Amin.

5) Belajar pakai kain batik 

Waaaa. Nih statement memalukan. Hihi dijadikan cerita, rumet kan suke pakai kain batik, then rasa teringin lah jugak nak pakai kat blok. Memang tak reti pon, asik nak terlucut. Sampai sekarang pun masih belajar. Yang besnyer, sekarang dah jumpe kain batik sarung. Tak payah ikat, jimat masa. LOL.

6) Belajar kontrol emosi

Saya budak emo. Especially kalau time PMS, janganlah tegur. Memang takkan dapat respond. Pastu sensitif jugak, cepat tersinggung. Tapi tersinggung pon, tak pernah confront, suka pendam sorang2. Nangis kat bilik sorang2 (Eww..). Alhamdulillah sedikit sebanyak, selepas all the tarbiyah, saya dah boleh kontrol emosi dan lebih bersabar. Dah boleh berlapang dada. Yang penting, dah boleh kontrol sikit mimik muka. Dah kurang emo. Lebih suka senyum. Waaa.

Hmm, banyak lagi benda yang kena belajar. Hidup kat luar KMB  nih lebih banyak cabarannya. Anyway, syukur Alhamdulillah sebab Allah masih pilih aku untuk dapat tarbiyah kat KMB. Sebenarnya, rasa tak layak pon untuk terima semua ni, sebab diri ini memang tak pernah ada contribution pun untuk Islam. Tapi, nak dijadikan crite, tarbiyah yang datang selepas kemasukan diri ini ke KMB memang sangat bertepatan dengan keadaan aku ketika itu. Time tu (after PLKN), memang terasa lost sangat. Macam hidup tu ada yang kurang. Rupa-rupanya, memang ada yang kurang. Mungkin selama ni tak pernah nak jadi a full-time muslimah. 

For those yang mencari2 tuh, teruskan mencari cinta Allah. Allah tu ada kat mana2 jer. Dah abes IB ke belum, sama je, Ilmu ALLAH tu banyak sangat, dan kita harus sentiasa belajar dan terus belajar. 

P/S Esok nak meeting dengan adik beradik mengenai video birthday mak. Ceyh meeting nih.

You have stolen my heart

Too tired to write anything.
But I want to thank you Allah,
For placing me among these people,
Who always have been there for me,
Through ups and downs of IB life,
They are my strength and motivations,
Indeed they have stolen my heart.
Oh ALLAH,
Let the ukkhuwah lasts to the eternity,
Till Jannah.
Amin.

 I LOVE M10D.

 

Ehem, I LOVE ANAEMIWAL :) :)

  Goodnight, everyone. All those walking during teacher's day and all those packing during clearance took away my energy. It has to recharged. This is the first night at home, after leaving KMB for good :) Hopefully, I can wake up early tomorrow to help mak with the cooking. Nak belajar masak! :)

The real journey begins

Assalamualaikum, it has been quite long since I wrote the last post (perhaps one month plus plus). I am now writing from my kampung sweet kampung. Alhamdulillah, it feels good to actually have time to sit down and spend time with the people I love after all the sweats, blood and tears of IB. But of course I miss my other family members in KMB (classmates, block E members and the list goes on).

When I was in the car last night (well the journey takes about 1 hour and half), I could not help listening to the intense discussions happening between my parents and my brother. The discussion was intense but so interesting that both me and my sister woke up from sleep just to listen to their conversation. I cannot really describe everything that my parents and my brother were discussing about, after all it's a serious family matter (no laughing matter I guess :P). But the conversation makes me realize how much my brother has changed, Alhamdulillah a change to the better, I suppose. I do not know how he could actually change himself to be a better person, but he is no longer the person he was a long time ago. He prayed at early times, earlier than me! He always shared about the sunnah and I can see how much he prioritize the religion more than other things.  And whenever me and my other siblings watch programs on the televisions (well our family likes reality shows),  he would tell us that those programs do not actually bring benefits to us. I would agree with him though. 

 Honestly, I used to really love sinetron, but all the tarbiyah in KMB taught me that I should really spend the precious times for something that benefits myself, something that will lead me to Allah. Okayh, back to the story. Sometimes I cannot believe myself that a person can change so much (referring to angah). But when I think back, it is just so easy for Allah. It is all depends on Him. Thanks to Him, Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, I really hope I can sustain my iman throughout the entire time at home. Oh my Lord, seriously I am now missing all the KULSEM moments in KMB. Trust me, it is going to take time for me to get myself used to the fact that there is no more KULSEM after the maghrib prayer. But, I always believe that reminders from Allah come in many different forms and ways. And the most important thing is, I have started to realize that there is so much things for me to do now at home. It is my responsibility, as a muslim, and as a sister, to share things that I have learned in KMB about Islam, to my other family members. Oh Allah, guide me please. I need you. Lead me to the right path :) Amin.

Thank you Allah

Assalamualaikum everyone. It is the end of the week :) Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah for giving me the chance to still undergo the respiration process continuously days and nights, thanks to Him for allowing the air to enter these lungs and my body cells, thanks to Him for allowing this stomach of mine filled with sufficient food (more than sufficient I guess..), thanks to Him for allowing my skeletal bones to move whenever a force is exerted from the muscles, thanks to Him for allowing this brain to absorb the Biology and Chemistry notes I read, thank you Allah for the heart that beats continuously without rest, THANK YOU ALLAH. There is so much that You have given me, but there is very little of appreciation that I show towards Your kindness. YOU have given me such a comfortable life, but yet I still whine when tested with even a small challenge of life. No matter how much I whine, and no matter how much I let myself drifted away by the love towards dunya, YOU are ALWAYS THERE, pouring more and more of YOUR love to me. Subhanallah, He is so caring and loving towards us :) His love is unlimited and will not scarce.

You know, when scrolling down the Facebook Home page, it is sad to see some of your friends are left behind, in their own world, while you are walking one step ahead of them. That was just in Facebook Homepage, but what about those which are beyond our perception? In the real world, there are so many people out there living their lives without knowing the real purpose of life. Life is more than to find the right spouse, more than to find good jobs, life itself is a responsibility. 

Based on my personal experiences, I have witnessed so many 'kejahilan' happening around me and yet I was not able to do anything to stop them (my friends) from repeating the same mistakes. They went clubbing, they drank alcohol in front of my very eyes, they did many other things that are against the religion (for example the most common is coupling). What have I done? Have I done my part? Will my effort be enough?

Hopefully Allah will open up their heart to see how beautiful Islam is. I always imagine myself being around them, talking about how amazing the religion is. Insya-Allah. I believe in Him, only He can give guidance to his slaves. He truly is the Best Planner.

He is always there for me.

 Assalamualaikum. Heee. I did not have the time to write a new post yesterday. Well, currently, me and my sisters (fine, Daniel too :P) are busy making a video for our daddy's upcoming birthday. Fuh, all the pictures-snapping and voice-recording, it kinda takes some time to make a really good video. Even though we are not that good, we want to try our best to please our father on his 48th birthday. We might be done with it tonight, insya-ALLAH. I might upload it as soon as it's ready to be watched :)

By the way, I wanna share something that happened to me in the morning. As the clock stroke almost 12, I was surprised to get a FB message from a friend, saying that our TOK teacher had been trying to reach my phone but failed to do so as my phone was out of battery. I realized that I got many missed calls, included from my class rep and from my TOK teacher. I had butterflies in my stomach as I felt like something was not right. With a trembling hand, I quickly reached my sis's phone and dialled my teacher's numbers. 

THEN... I found out that she has rejected my essay as I did not cite for one of the quotes in the essay. I had to fix it and re-upload it within 2 hours.  At first, I was kinda okayh with it, until I realised that I did not have my pin number with me, it's in KMB! My heart almost stopped pounding. It is just not possible to drop by KMB just to get the pin number =.=. It's too time-consuming. Plus, I did not want to call Dr Saidah, I was too scared. Well, she might be on holiday and I did not want to disturb her.

I took a deep breath, I said to myself, no matter what happen, I just had to get the pin number within the 2 hours. I was informed that the Math HL students are still in KMB as they have a class tomorrow (Class during the holidays? Waaaa!). And I tried to reach all the girls who take Math HL, and all of them did not answer my calls T.T . Seriously, at that particular time, I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I sat down alone, at the corner of the room and did not stop praying to Allah so that He will ease everything for me. 

Then, again, I reached my phone and started dialling Dr Saidah.
 

"Tett tett tett, the number you have called cannot be reached, please leave your message after the tone.".

 I  redialled and the same voice turned up. Noooo. Dun give up! I said to myself....

 

 Hoho. Then the third time I called Dr Saidah, she answered it. Alhamdulillah she was such in a good mood :) :) Her voice was as soft as her heart. Hehe. She even texted me the pin and the personal code. She is such a nice woman. May ALLAH bless her always :D

Fuh, I did not know why I felt so nervous when it all happened. Anyway, I learned many things from what happened this morning, included:

First, always seek help from Allah and always BELIEVE that ALLAH will help you. He is the BEST listener ever :'') 

Second, I must learn to be more calm in facing the challenges of life. Relax, but think fast :) Hehe.

Third, please learn to always bring your personal things with you in case of the arise of the unexpected things. 

Forth, always expect the unexpected.  

Fifth, always charge your phone when it is out of battery =.=''

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for the great reminder :) :) 

Have a good night everyone, take care. 

XOXOXO

Love, Shireen.